A musical Ice cream truck passed by in the distance filling the neighborhood with lovely feelings of moving somewhere new as well as  awesome feelings of home experiencing first pleasures and excitements of this world. Just enough gloom to cast a veil of comfort over your body and soul and just enough sunshine in the distance to feel the change of summer to fall in ventura , ca. Feelings of safety, curiosity, comfort , niaveness , wonderment , love , care , and interest mixed with passions and in this moment it felt perfect and to be living in the moment felt like I had not been living like i was meant to live before ….. but to recognize and experience it now was the perfection of this perfect moment . To have the light after all the dark and remembering those moments of your inner child thru the trauma you feel the beauty in pain